February 2011
122 posts
currently dying over chace crawford. updated celeb crush list:
kim bum
chace crawford
joseph gordon-levitt
neil patrick harris
but I will always admire high school shuk more <3
January 2011
46 posts
STOP FIGHTING. you fucking see each other for seven days a year. have some dignity. have some understandings and forgiveness.
and I thought childish plays would end in high school. but nooo, people are all the same.
I want to be different when I grow up.
why does mom and dad always fight
dad doesn’t even stay for a very long time..
I’m really afraid of what may happen when mom moves back to Korea to live with dad. if they can’t spend one week without having quarrels, what are they going to do once they start living together for 24/7?
dad coming home means one thing for sure - shopping. I pretty much shop twice a year (aka every time I see him). today’s list included:
facial cream
lip balm
a pair of jeans
a dress
I wonder why I have such a difficult time constantly using lip balms. I always try, but after a day or two I give up on using them. the heavy, sticky chapstick feeling on my lips feels so weird. I feel like...
dad, you would buy swarovski’s crystal cut USB port that costs 50 dollars as my graduation present lol. I’d rather have you save up all the money for my college tuition but if I were a parent, I would find happiness in buying presents for my kids too.
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bored out of my mind. who would have known gossip girl would become my guilty pleasure. started yesterday, already half-way into season two. have I mentioned that in junior year I finished five seasons of how I met your mother in three days? talk about amazing.
helloooo seven day weekend.
plus daddy.
PLEASE LET THERE BE NO SCHOOL TOMORROW
I hate geosystems tests
I try so hard but it haunts me. everywhere. even in episodes of gossip girl I just began watching. oh, dartmouth.
doing much better but I know it’d always hurt. like one’s first kiss one no longer talks to.
there’s a high chance of not having school tomorrow and oh god I really hope we have geo quarter test next week altogether and not just 6th period on Friday because I don’t have the old quizzes to study for the test.. I was going to borrow them from friends tomorrow :[
why do we not have school today. there’s less than 0.5 inch of snow on the ground. maybe because there’s ‘severe weather warning’ throughout the entire day (toward the afternoon)?
well I ain’t complaining.
totes going to finish eating noodles and chill out like a boss. listen to the radio and maybe even watch a movie. no real school tomorrow for me (Kennedy Center) except for the chinese test I am coming back during 8th period to make up.. I think need to spend more time for myself.
wow you did wake me up… and lol I can’t believe you’re now yelling at me to become a doctor. oh wait, you tell me to become a doctor every other day. do you not know your own daughter.. how miserable it was for me at TJ because of science classes and how long I have been hoping to study business and work in non-profits in the future. I’m sorry if I’m never going to...
and I hate that I curse so much because I know Johnny hates it and I secretly promised myself I would curse less for him. I hope you give me exceptions sometimes because cursing is the only way to stop me from crying my eyes out at times like this.
not that I’m not crying right now but that’s not really the point. wow embarrassing. why did I pledge to not erase any of the posts I post...
good thing you left the house. I hope you don’t come back soon. I’m planning on crying and falling asleep for an hour or two and if you come back and wake me up by slapping, I’m not sure if I would be able to stop myself from either punching you or myself.
for the past six fucking years I have never even owned my personal room. who the fuck, a girl at an age eighteen, still...
stop giving me a fuck about how I donated blood without your permission. this isn’t a ‘start of series of rebellious acts now that I am eighteen”. I’m not going to get drunk and sleep with boys even when I go to college just because I don’t have you around anymore, because I have a set of morals I choose to follow. there’s a big difference between exercising the...
dear dan,
pardon me because I just feel like writing out something I’ve been keeping on my mind. there is no particular reason why I’m posting this here and not on my main blog, since I’m not afraid of saying this at all.. but that’s not important.
I can think of so many wrong assumptions I made about you in the past. I know I’ve apologized before and you told me...
64 pages of gov to read tonight?!?!?! so fucking screwed. but I had to take half an hour to write about takumi because when I delay writing posts like those, after a while emotions tend to disappear.. puff! and I hate having to let go of things I treasure so much that way. and if I could pick only one between academics and people, I would pick the latter every time, perhaps a million times over....
I AM SO COLD.
so so screwed for the gov test tomorrow. and mom’s going to get really mad for not going to bed early again. and I hate american youth philharmonic (youth orchestra). I have been in ayp for the past five years and I have always loved the rehearsals but starting the end of last year I have learned to hate them. over the years, the quality of ayp has astonishingly dropped. and...
planning summer trip with christine. taiwan/korea is the plan and I really hope everything works out. I am so excited.
oh god. I just back-traced 113 pages of my dashboard just so I could like one post. it’s because she has notes/reblogs/etc disabled on her blog and the only way to do any of it is through the dash.
worth it, though.
while watching me upload posts about evan
brother: you are a freak..
LOL I agree
things I’ve been wishing to do & am definitely doing in college -
- go for a walk every evening
- photography. let it become my serious hobby
- bake and cook often
- take dance classes
- work out
soo close to not remembering it again in time. I did, though.
after you IMed me but that doesn’t count since you didn’t say a word about your birthday and we talked about snow instead. teehee.
I also have a present that I got from a longgg time ago (since I’m not allowed to shop I take chances when they come) but the matter of timely delivery is.. questionable.
dear everyone whom I’ve let slip away from my life,
please give me another chance.
:[
to be honest with you, I am extremely afraid.
of everything.
tough cookie on the outside, but a frail heart inside.
I have started a habit of listening to the live radio online. I love the radio, but since I don’t drive, I do not have much time to listen otherwise. this afternoon, I got tired of listening to 99.5 pop music so I switched to classical WETA. I soon realized I have been limiting my choice of music extremely - I usually only listen to my iTunes the moment I step out of my orchestra class and...
crushed:
n,
every single cell in our body is replaced every seven years. and by my calculations that means by october 2015 the person i will be will have never even touched you.
distance has widened and new things have grown in place. nothing is really forgotten but at this point it’s fluid. it’s taken me this long to encourage myself to stop wishing for a return or a sincere apology, to let...
Watch..this kind. lol
I NOW HAVE A PUPPY!
:D
interview went pretty well. an hour long.. why do my interviews never last more than an hour.
my brother’s taking the SATs right now. I hope he does well. I wish I told him ‘good luck’ when he left this morning. instead I just watched him walk out of the door. why am I bad at saying things like that - I don’t think I ever say enough ‘thank you’s or ‘I...
tomorrow’s schedule
- georgetown interview @ panera’s at 10 am
- givology lunch meeting to plan DC-wide fundraiser @ cosi at 12 pm
- violin lesson at 3 pm .. crap left my violin at school
I am already reading my previous posts and debating whether to delete all of them. I would never say any of this out loud. I tend to keep my thoughts to myself. writing everything that’s going through my head feels so weird..
perhaps this will become a good exercise.
annandale high students flowing in like crazy again. I swear, half of their school is here. they must be all fat or something.
WHY GEORGETOWN UNIVERSITY?
I’m actually not sure.. lol. interview tomorrow morning.
swim meet just ended. about 40 people started to come into the restaurant. I’m already feeling much better. no more bitchin’. :]
it’s so cold here at the restaurant. why did I just order a cup of vanilla milkshake…
fuddruckers benefit night for amnesty international club. I probably look really stupid right now, sitting alone at the bakery section of the restaurant with my macbook. the manager got mad at me for handing out flyers in front of his restaurant but I got pretty pissed off myself. what do you want me to do when you aren’t allowed to promote fundraisers that are not sponsored by the school....
your birthday is not even that hard to remember. then why do I never remember it until that very day. I know you’ll read this and you’ll tell me not to worry about it but I feel so stupid for doing that, every year.
evan cheng, sometimes I’m afraid I am taking too many things and people for granted. including you.
especially you.
cramming my science essay during 7th period.
why do I always leave things until the last moment.
it’s not that I’m afraid to post these on my main blog. strangely enough, I am quite honest about everything I write there. I don’t need an additional layer of privacy, and I am true to my feelings - even to strangers.
the reason I created this one is a bit different. it’s more like.. here is for those unpolished, dirty words I don’t often dare to use. here is for...
이별이 너무 싫다.
이젠 새로운 사람을 만나는 것도 두려워. 이 사람은 언제 사라질지, 언제 상처를 남기고 떠날건지 걱정부터 앞선다.
나는 왜 이런 겁쟁이일까.
so so so fucked for tomorrow. geosystems quiz I haven’t studied for. and I am still not done with the science essay I started around 4 hours ago. why is it that I can’t write anything when it comes to science? I have absolutely no clue how I could make this essay on the correlation between sleep and human psychology extremely interesting.